May Marathon

Yeah, yeah, I know long time no hear from. I'm spending most of my blogging time over at Wordpress.

I did want to drop in and update a little. I'm taking part in the May Marathon writing challenge over at the Will Write for Wine forums. Amazing what a couple frustrated writers can do on a Thursday night via Twitter.

So my goal is simple, write 50,000 words on my NaNo manuscript so it's finally long enough for me to start thinking about sending out queries.

That's it.

Oh and if I'm not completely brain fried by the end of the month, I'll be participating in SocNoc in June which means 50,000 more words on a completely different story.

Yup, writer crazies, I have them.

Nano update

Just a little reminder for my readers here, for most of this month my blogging will be done here:

http://coffeecolouredworld.wordpress.com/

I'll continue to update the word meter here, probably, but the posts will go on over at Wordpress.

Snow? Why?

Yeah, I complained about the weather (snow) in my last post too. This time I have pictures! Sorry, it's hard to muster up enthusiasm when it's October and you have snow on the ground. At least I knitted the first of a pair of fingerless mittens that I intend to wear when I'm working here at the computer. Have I mentioned my desk sits infront of a window? Yeah, it gets a little cold sometimes.

huh?

It's snowing (insert grumpy face here) (insert angry looks out window) and I'm really not happy about it.

I subscribe to the theory that snow is pretty, but only between the dates of December 22nd and January 3rd. I don't much like the cold either, but I deal (sort of).


cross posted to http://coffeecolouredworld.wordpress.com

not so calm

Well, that's an interesting development. I had intended to post this at my other blog but I cannot seem to get beyond the front page over at WordPress. Oh Joy.

So, on to other things.

I've got my Nano story outlined. It's bare bones, but it's there. I have a beginning, a middle, and an end. That's new for me. I have secondary characters on the heroine's side, now I just need to flesh out the people on the hero's side of the story. Feeling good about this.

Not much else really. It's gotten very cold here, which I'm so not happy about. Of course if I'd pull the storm window down it would probably cut back on the draft coming through my window. When it stops raining I may just do that. Yeah, the weather is really working against me this week.

calm now

I hate being wound up. I hate tension. I hate drama.

So I logged into my cell phone account today and found my new bill. It was the exact price I was promised my monthly bill wouldn’t be. I. Hit. The. Roof. Of course, because the website was in the process of updating I couldn’t actually see a print out of the bill for about 20 minutes. Those were not pretty minutes let me tell you. When I finally got to see the bill I understood. See when I got the new shiny, it needed a new service. Verizon, the little black hearts, pro-rated my bill. So it’s about $30 more this month than it will be every month after. (deep breath in, deep breath out)

I feel better now. I also know, thanks to the cool chick I spoke to at customer service, how to avoid the pro-rating i.e. buy everything on line. So, later, when the stress headache goes away completely I’ll download my ring tone. The one I lost when I changed phones. I need my ring tone, it’s sexy and . . . well sexy. I’m also thinking of downloading (purchasing, whatever) a second one for the email sounder. I mean anything would be better than the “clunk” it does now. I’ve never hated every ring tone that came pre-installed before, but I don’t like a damn one of them on my Blackberry. Of course you could say I’m just picky.

Not much else right now in my little life. Fall has come back after Summer came back around for one last hurrah (the little tease).

I really hate titles

When last we saw our intrepid blogger she was contemplating the what if of a past crush.

I'm feeling mostly better, not that I was really feeling all that bad when I wrote my previous entry. I say mostly because this evening I've been having the frustrating conversation with some internet friends over my lack of charity resources. I have some old books that the local library won't take for the annual sale as well as some gently used stuffed toys that I want to donate. It would break my heart to have to trash them. The problem? I live in a charitable black hole. All the obvious places you can think of, either don't exist here or won't take anything used. Hey, shiny new things - sure, bring them over. Cash - Yes! we take that.

About my previous post however. Yes, I know that looking backward isn't necessarily the best way to live. I don't do it much. Well, much beyond the introspection one does in the months following a break up anyway. But this is different. This is a what if that keeps coming back to me. I have been turning this around and around in my mind for over a year now. There are things that I have learned over these many years and one is to listen when something keeps coming back to me. Another lesson is when I can't push myself off something (an idea, a thought, something like that) then I need to get an answer.

The question was asked to me on another blog what's the worst that could happen? It's a very good question. One I have considered. The worst is one of two options. First, he doesn't remember me (yeah my ego doesn't like that one at all). Second, he's not interested. I can live with that.

See this is me wondering if he wonders about me at all. There are a million reasons why it would be perfectly logical for him to never think about me and to have never given me a second thought. There is one thing though. An act of kindness that was so wholly foreign to me that I still think about it.

So, until I have an answer I'll continue to wonder.

Oh, and about that too concerned about the what if that I don't see the what is. What is for me right now is a simple life that's very much in transition. Not sure where I'm going yet but I'm looking forward to the adventure.